allow me to be emo today. haha.

i woke up crying. as in i opened my eyes then tears came out. AMAZING. haha. then i was suddenly reminded of gigi liang yong qi's 泪光. the lyrics goes "等眼泪变成钻石..". i want to change it to "当眼泪变成钻石". cos if that is true, i would have woken up a multi-millionaire. i would have woken up to a pillow full of diamonds~!!! wahaha...

anyway, fungi, wilson, serkun arh... i bought that bossini purple colour shirt le~! the one that says "Diamonds are a gurl's best friend". wahaha. i wore it to church yesterday. so peijun saw. when i bought it i messaged zhiwei to suan him cos he did not buy his grey and pink striped shirt yet. WAHAHA.... ok, i shall try not to be so mean in the future =P

actually, my best friends are not diamonds la. they are humans. heh. but i don't mind having both =P keke...

oh yes, and i almost cried while listening to 西界. oh man. emo la. emo. i felt so much when i heard the lyrics. then i started writing the lyrics out... 给我一丝光线... notice that half of the words in this phrase have the 丝字旁? wahaha. no wonder i love this song so much. 思 what. heh.

can i proudly say that i've finally made a decision that is right? haha. i guess so. i know that it is right cos i used my right brain to think. my left brain kept telling my otherwise. but i chose to trust my right brain. now my left brain is ignoring me. and i feel the effects of it's absence. oh well. at most i'll a bit dumber ba. keke. so now everything i order cannot be too big. must be small. cos only one part of my brain is working. means, i cant eat Rendang Double Burger from BK anymore. i will have to switch to Mushroom Swiss Single le. keke... lame. i'm so crappy. so lame. cant stand myself. that's why i'm sitting down now. haha.

let me random a bit. coming to terms with a loss is a tough thing. i just lost something la!!! i'm feeling so sad. i think that's the cause of me emo-ing. sigh. sigh. sigh...... im unable to find it back currently. buy another similar one? cannot!! it's different. i have a lot of 感情 with the old one. it's hard to pretend it doesn't exist. it's harder to pretend it is still with me. CRAP LA~!!! things have sentimental value can? and in a twinkling of an eye, it is gone... so bottom line is, treasure what you have before it disappears - items and humans alike. sad.... i hope i can get out of it soon. i guess i'd be okay in a while... i hope =S

and yes, i changed my player again~!!! haha. the songs are emo songs i guess. haha. when i'm sad i'll listen to these few songs de. there are super old songs [e.g. fan xiao xuan's qian yi shi(1996)], old songs [e.g. son by four's purest of pain(2000)], not so old songs [e.g. gigi's 泪光(2002), melody's hui zhi bu qu(2003)], and new songs [e.g. yang chen ling's que yang(2007) and fan fan's ni zhi you yi ge(2007)]. the other songs are guo mei mei's gou gou shou(2006), ZOEgirl's gve me one reason(2000), and yang chen ling's zuo bian(2006) .

anyone emo too? let's emo together! haha. i think the fan xiao xuan song is a classic lehx... man!! haha. nice. nice. zuo bian is... sigh.. nice too la. zhen de! no xi jie this time round, cos.... i think i will really cry. heh.