yesterday (before 12am) was a very happy day. kongann, joey, sonia, rico came. i love them. i really do. i was so overjoyed and elated that i cried. i just kept crying. PnW time the tears just kept coming. i was crying throughout. i couldn't stop it. it's been quite sometime since this happened. and i found God once again. thanks for the cross, Jesus. it was a love-filled affair. and i realised that i have the capacity to love cos He gave me that capacity. i just am so glad they came. my sonia you know? all the regret and despair turned into love and determination. i felt that i had added strength. kongann lehx... this one break record. i held my tears for about 12hours before letting them out. everyone knows i cant control my tears. i just cry. but that day, that very day, i held them for 12hours. i love him. joey. i love her too. although i know i have that capacity to love her more. rico.... like duh! of cos i love him la! he was there when i first came. he took good care of me. now all i can do is to take good care of him back. all the prayers worked. thank God for drawing them back to church. all glory to God.

and thanks to peijun and daryl for being such great leaders. still cant believe daryl said that i am like this mother. alamak!

thanks to shuen too. my darling discipler. if it weren't for her, i would not be what i am today. im really blessed to have such a good discipler. i really love her too. all her nonsense, her encouragement, her advice, her understanding... i learnt a lot from her. how to be a better discipler. not to blame myself for things that have happened. to really have faith and pia all the way with God by my side. cannot change discipler. i will cry.

thanks to xiao di luwei and baobeii eunice for praying. i love them. i really do.