It means a new beginning...

A new beginning to build on existing relationships with people and with God.

i shall not divulge too much on what i wrote on that slip of paper. but it was along these lines. btw, i did not shred my paper cos the shredder was jammed. sis wp just took the slip of paper and threw it into the bin. well, there were some really really PnC stuff that is only between me and God. but... oh well.

2oo8 WILL BE a good year for Nissi - Peijun.

i could feel it the instant i rushed up to the front to welcome the newcomers. then in cell group, people talked more. people like Marco. the new guy, Victor, was nice to talk to too. Amrish stayed for dinner even though Bel wasn't around (you know, usually if your friend who brings you to some place leaves, you'll naturally leave with him/her, right? but this didn't happen. guys~!!! tighter followups! girls, PRAY~!!!!). Marco prayed for Daryl (lk w0w~!!!!) cell hitting 2o for the FIRST time in history. i still remember its humble beginnings, where there were only 4 girls, then down to 3... i feel so proud to be as old as the cell, in terms of church years. Huishan, Jaslyn, Shuen and i talked more nonsense. really shared to each other about stuff... ok la. shuen shared stuff about me to them... bleah. really. the atmosphere is different. i just cannot really pinpoint which part... but this IS the year for Nissi - Peijun.

Have a heart of expectancy, guys (and girls). He will fill your empty box. just exactly how big is your box? that's the size God wants to fill. Expect~!!!!

Oh man. 2oo8 is such a good year. it kicked off to a good start with me celebrating with Lamerz amidst nice fireworks. work was fine so far. in fact i think my skills have improved! i pick and pack medications faster than before! and i am less prone to injuries although i still sustain them. haha. and it WILL be a good year for Nissi - Peijun as well *smiles*

let love cover. tim sim reminded me this again today. how powerful a phrase. i let love cover today in church. i shall not mention anything. but i corrected someone out of love. yup. i know i did the right thing. oh my.... i'm just so excited about the things God has installed for cell. this is so .... 0o0o00hh~!!!! i just cannot contain my excitement! heh.

before the sermon, to me, 2oo8 is just another year. you know? like i have to write the year as o8 and NOT o7 anymore. i am constantly reminded that i will be TWENTY soon, leaving my teenage years behind me. that it is just the start of another academic year for school going kids.... not anymore. sermon brought about a new meaning to the new year.... i thank God for 2oo7 and the events that have taken place. they have moulded me to be a woman more of character, a woman after God's heart. (i used the word "woman" cos i'm hitting the big TWO soon). happy stuff that i laughed over, unhappy stuff that made me sustain swollen eyes... things that happened the way i wanted it to, things that did not turn out the way i expected it to. the quarrels, the patches, the talks, the laughter, the tears, the smiles... everything. i thank God for them.

my spiritual growth? to be honest, i did not think about this aspect until i read the note peijun gave me for my Xmas prezzie (cell de). i re-read the sentence and started to evaluate my spiritual growth. i have to agree with her that i really grew this year. and a lot. mission trip was the turning point, i suppose. i really learnt a lot, took home a lot of valuable lessons. i mature. i learnt to serve gladly. i learnt that God's ways are higher than mine (Rom 8:28 tide me through the times that were trying). i learnt to let love cover. i learnt that relationships with people matter so much to me. that's why this year, i'm going to make it a point to treasure my loved ones more. i am prepared to be interrupted. i want to do things that are of eternal value.

in 2oo7, i kept asking myself, what if _______ died. how would life be like? faces splashed across my mind and i started crying. serious. no joke. i don't want what i imagined to be a reality. so... yea.... relationships. treasure them.

i did not go to church for 2 weeks, so it felt really great to be praising and worshipping God once again in His house, in His presence. never take coming to church lightly.

someone told me this: God gave us a chance to choose whether to love Him; but He did not give Himself a chance to choose whether to love us. powerful!

Thank you for the cross, my Friend.
Once again I thank You, once again I pour out my life.


i kept singing this song the past few days. just as when i'm feeling lonely, feeling that something is amiss, feeling that no one cares, i know that my God will always be there the fill that void, that vacuum in my heart.

random: Cheryl, Shuen and i are the toilet sisters. for 1, 3 of us met outside the toilet cos we were all sooo urgent. for 2, all of us had the same shade of blue on us (Shu and i - shirt; Cheryl - ear rings). for 3, all of us had the same shade of white on us (ok, not funny. white has only one shade). WAHAHA.... random super mini toilet gatherings are so fun.

random: everyone cut their hair! weijian, henry?, marco, henson, xunxiang, zixin, joshua... i cannot remember. i know there were a lot more. and peifen aka winnie-the-sister re-rebonded her hair.