You know... I hate ants so much. I really do! And I hate cockroaches too! Especially those mutated kinds that look like the size of half my 15cm ruler. I encountered one two weeks back and I cried. I hate it!!!! Ants too! They are everywhere!!! Kitchen, storeroom, toilet, bedroom, wardrobe, dining table, study table. I just wonder where they all come from! Been trying to find the ant nests but failed. I wanna exterminate them all!!! Argh!!!! Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill!!!!!

Anyway, exams are more or less done. One more to go. I predict my result slip this semester will be disappointing. I predict my CAP to drop. How depressing. A lousy sem ended on a lousy note. The all-non-nursing-mods-except-one sem killed. So much memory work. Draining. So many assignments. I must mention that I didn't get to rest much the previous holiday before this sem started. And guess what? Attachment for this sem starts right after exams! Hohoho! Merry Xmas.

Attchments are all work and no fun, if you consider working as doing work and not getting paid. If that wasn't your definition of "working", then attachment will be considered as "free labour" to you. I've lemented about this many times, by I guess only a handful of people truly understand it. They include my nursing girlfriends and my family, cos they are the ones who can see how tired I am when I return home daily. One nursing girlfriend commented that no one (friends who are outside the nursing circle) understands the dread we are facing right now, not to mention the tiredness once it all starts. It's so depressing I can cry thinking about it. I don't want to go through the whole process of being so tired til even chewing becomes a chore. I guess that explains why mr bean has been getting my business all this while - I don't eat during breaks. I only drink. Can't imagine having my feet endure 9 hours of standing non stop daily. And oh! The mind games the other nurses play with us... NUS student. Know everything. Rubbish. Kena ostracized. Kena called to do all the rubbishy work. WE ARE NOT EXTRA PAIRS OF HANDS!!! That was what the head instructor of nursing at XX hospital told us on my very first day there. Hoho! It didn't take me long to realise that was false. Not to mention the EXTRA stuff we have to worry about - passing 70% of CCER, weekly reflections, overall institution reflections, case studies and assignments!!! Oh...

When everyone's enjoying, there I will be free labouring. And I just want to clarify in advance: If I keep rejecting meet ups, it's not because you aren't important to me nor is it because I am not making an effort. Pls understand where I am coming from. Thank you very much!

To my nursing girlfriends... Let's be brave soldiers and march on! Fighting!

P.S. Microbee sucked