** my brother, zhonghua **
zhonghua called and we chatted for 30min.
i just want to thank God for him. my brother. come to think about it, it is REALLY AMAZING how we met and got to know each other which lead to me eventually joining library. it was all well-planned by God. yup! yup!
thank zhonghua for:
- encouraging me
- loving me as a sister
- caring for me despite him being so busy and stressed
- guiding me in library and in my everyday life...
- appreciating / thanking me
- being scared to take airplanes =P
....
...
...
thank God for putting him in my life to say things that really speak to me! i know it is all from God. one sentence is all that it needs to spur me on!
kor, you were used by God! *smile* =)
so what are you waiting for?
join library~!!!!
lolx. like a bit no link. heh.
i love my brother!
| Standing In The GAP @ 10:06 pm |
Thursday, October 30, 2008
when even a cup of coffee cannot wake her up,
when she is feeling so terrible til no tears fall,
when she starts to consume a lot of junk food without care for the calories,
you know that
szern is not herself.
| Standing In The GAP @ 10:09 pm |
nursing's timetable is plain shitty.
i just saw the sem 2 timetable draft (and the sem 2 exam timetable as well. wanna know the details? -_-").
it's plain shitty.
how am i going to plan my GEMS around the already shitty timetable?
i thought one sem of shittiness was enough...
now, even more shitty.
disgusting.
i really need to hang on to pursue this dream God has given me.
changed my player. i love the jj songs man. i'm bleeding love, right now ='(
| Standing In The GAP @ 9:53 pm |
dear timothy is out for a day...
and he was the one who helped me do this:
thanks, boy! =)
and i skyped huishan! she's in Germany, btw.
i miss her da bian-ness.
i really WANT her to come back.
| Standing In The GAP @ 1:58 pm |
looking at the timer, every hour, every minute, every second, isn't going to help, sze~!
fighting the tears and emotions.
| Standing In The GAP @ 10:09 pm |
** and so, the countdown starts **
i was humming this song just now....
purge away my sins
make me whole again
burn within my heart
a passion for your name
cleanse me of my faults
make me pure within
deep inside my heart
renew the fire again
burn in me the fire
well, my heart stopped beating yesterday. but it got revived by the power of God. i can stand and face the world once again. it is for the good of everyone. utilitarianism. haha! apply my ethical theories in my daily life! ha! ms kamala, you did a good job, eh? keke.
i tell you, God is so good. He is a prayer-answering God. i prayed for my obstacles to be removed yesterday during alter call. and when i got home, things happened. shall not elaborate much. but it did. and my obstacle was removed. how cool was that?! thank God.
a word of advice people, think about the consequences before you do anything. whether it will affect the people beside you. do not succumb to your "hormones"! lolx. to a particular friend, i quoted that from you-know-who =P jiayoule, friend!
today's magical number....
189!
| Standing In The GAP @ 1:21 pm |
** bye timo **
oh my!
so timothy is gone. gone. gone!!! gone to serve the nation. gone to waste his youth. this is so saddening. i will miss this brother, this photographer, this media guy, this guitarist, this encourager, this person who will hear me out... ARGH~!!!!
he will be out.
timothy sim wei jin.
anyway, i cannot believe it. i am this blog's 5000th page viewer~!!! WAHAHA~!!! it's high time. the 1000th, 2000th, 3000th and 4000th weren't me!!! sorry to dear chiling who WANTS to be the 5000th. wahaha~!!! try again next time, ok? 6000th. aim for it!
and i realised that i went to school a pinky girl today. hot pink top, hot pink pencil, baby pink pencil case, baby pink file, baby pink tissue holder, lavender water bottle, lavender hand cream, lavender handphone strap. ya... it was kinda scary =S
and i really Really REALLY wanna thank God that i passed my practical CA test on vital signs and handwashing. during my vital signs, i totally zonked out. blanked out. i was so nervous i forgot ALL the steps. it was really bad. my examiner kept prompting me on a lot of things. i thought i would fail. i really thought so. the domino effect started once i heard the first prompt. then i lost whatever confidence i had and forgot the remaining steps. it was really bad. but in the end, thank God for this very lenient examiner, i managed to pass. i know i would not be able to do this on my own. and it is only by the hand of God that i managed to pass. thank God. thank God. i aspire to be like my examiner. the kind heart of not failing me. thank God.
and ok! it's out! i chose my clinical posting...
1st choice: AMK-Thye Hua Kuan Hospital
(it's like going back to AJ once again -_-" and there's 852 to church! although it takes quite long.)
2nd choice: St. Luke's
(this is like super near huishan's house lor! i can go check on her parents after attachment or something. and it is near church! should i work on a sat, i would be able to reach church in a while)
3rd choice: United Medicare Centre
(toa payoh has good food)
really am hoping i get AMK-Thye Hua Kuan.
finally, it's a saturday tomorrow!!!
| Standing In The GAP @ 6:54 pm |
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
** Nissi - GAP Covenant Signing Day **
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mic bay sat beside me for anatomy lecture today =)
the below was written on 18th October 2008, close to midnight:
i just came back from vivo~!!! another cell outing at vivo. haha!
and my feet really really really hurt. girls love pretty don't want life (please translate this into Mandarin). oh man.. i wonder how other girls can ever stand wearing heels for so long... like those models, celebs etc. dancing, jumping, hopping, skipping, play netball, jogging in high heels... they amaze me! don't they know how much damage they are doing to their feet, ankles, knees and calves?! hMm...
anyway, i had a great time with Nissi - GAP.
God. Ambassadors. People.
We serve to bridge the gap between the living and the dead... give us a heart of compassion... for a world without vision.. we will make a difference... bringing hope, to our land.
i love the name. it's cool! Nissi - GAP. Gaptians. i feel a sense of belonging to my little community...
it's I, it's I, it's I who build community....
haha. i'm too tired. pardon me.
anyway, GAP cabbed to vivo! just nice! 12 people! 3 cabs! exact! i was amazed when peijun told us we're going to cab down. i thought we had to take a bus down! i met zhonghua in the lift before meeting peijun. he asked us how we were going down. i replied, "bus". his reply was, "wear until so nice take bus?!" HAHA!!!! now, i can prove him WRONG! we glammed in a cab! (good thing #1)
upon reaching mache, the waitress ushered us to our seats in a corner with separate tables. it was nice to have our little space, but we were fussy. we preferred having a table that is big enough (the cashier referred to it as the "mahjong" table). we requested and got the table! Ask, and you shall receive! (good thing #2)
a flopped watch advertisement.
pillow fight!!!
we ate good food at mache. the Rosti is a MUST TRY. it was super funny when all the guys came back with a plate of rosti each. it was like a rosti feast. GAP food, or something like that. the girls shared a plate of rosti. smart! cos the guys were so full when they finished their plate of rosti. the girls however, still had space and proceeded to get their 2nd serving. heh... the ham and cheese crepe is good too! no cheesy smell! if szern can eat it, so can you! haha! and the apple crumble! oh my! it's nice! i love apple pie / crumble / soup. whatever. the apple crumble's nice. luwei had this thing for cross buns today. haha. i love mushrooms! i really do! anyone on for mushroom steamboat? (good thing #3)
bel.sze.shu
mango cheese cake. apple crumble. cheese cake.
apple crumble =) <3
xiao di enjoying his cross bun. wahaha!!!
huishan called when we were having dinner! she is still a part of us. we have not forgotten her. all of us present took turns to talk to her! she misses us. and we miss her too! (good thing #4)
there you are, huishan!
on shu's hand! =P
peijun found her missing umbrella! (good thing #5)
GAPians each have our own markers! (good thing #6)
GAPians have our own stickers!!!! so cute!!! thank you peijun!!! the guys liked it too!!! and the girls still thought they'll think it's childish... haha. look at the way the guys chose the sticker designs!!! haha!!! (good thing #7)
i goped most of the tigger ones =P
guys are vain too~!!! WAHAHAHAH~!!!! while the girls were having their girly talk, we overheard the guys talking about hairsprays.... -_-" Adrian, you can be good friends with my cell guys. WAHAHA~!!! so, henson, you cannot give us girls the *diao* look when we wanna go to the restroom to do our touch ups! haha!!! (good thing #8)
we signed the covenant. we are a part of each other now. (good thing #9)
nice eh? =P
here is the moment...
this was totally unexpected and unglam. but i still posted this cos my eyes are super big! oh my! wow!!!
we celebrated henson's birthday! (good thing #10)
we took a GAP photo!!! (good thing #11)
bryan.joshua.henson.luwei.gary.victor.timo
sze.shu.darren.PEIJUN.bel.
the people who are in ministry need not serve on GAP day! we could all be with the rest of cell =) (good thing #12)
we showed our appreciation for one another. i almost cried when victor gave his speech. it was honest. and i thank God he came today! really! but i held my tears. cos... makeup was on! if i cry, everything will smudge! so... haha. ya. (good thing #13)
we love one another. contestants in beauty pageants love to say "world peace!" at the end of their Q&A segment. we, GAPians, did something similar, but less bimbotic - "I LOVE YOU GUYS~!!!" (good thing #14)
Nissi GAP will strive to achieve greater heights. (good thing #15)
18th October is GAP DAY~!!! =D (good thing #16)
Nissi GAP is dedicated to God. (the BEST thing)
randoms:
me, taking a photo of peijun taking a photo of timo.
speaking of peijun, it's byebye nissi - peijun. hello nissi - GAP.
i love purple / lavender.
more photos will come soon. i hope =S
| Standing In The GAP @ 10:03 am |
Saturday, October 18, 2008
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ladies and gentlemen,
szern broke her very own record once again.
she threw face, YET AGAIN, in school.
however, this isn't the record that was broken.
well, the story goes...
szern went to bed at 9.30pm yesterday night as she was EXTREMELY drained / tired / worn out / dizzy / blur / can no longer concentrate etc. i told friend X (fungi, this is NOT your friend X =P) to call me when it was 10pm as i needed to meet weiling online to discuss our PIP (professional issues and practices) project. then, szern concussed....
at 10.30pm, her dad shook her up and passed her the house phone.
over at the other end, "take a look at your phone."
szern promptly did what she was told.
lo and behold,
SEVENTEEN (17) MISSED CALLS~~~!!!!!can you ever believe it? szern actually slept through 17 handphone calls and one house call when her handphone was just right beside her! oh my....
this goes to show that szern is really, Really, REALLY tired.
cummon, pray for her. pray for strength. pray for wisdom. pray for less stress. pray for her to be able to meet all the deadlines. pray for added time to study smart for her upcoming CAs. pray, Pray, PRAY~!!!!
i don't know if friend X will visit this blog.
but in any case, thank you friend X =) so now you know my house number. haha!!!
and thank you friend Y for telling friend X my house phone number. keke.
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just read fungi's and yeewen's blogs.
dear lamerz girls,
jiayoule~!!! fungi, yeewen, peijun. jiayoule~!!! we are all in this together!!! let's support one another like sisters do~!!!
i love you guys.... *bao!*bao!*
| Standing In The GAP @ 9:43 am |
Saturday, October 11, 2008
** i love the noise in cell **
i was reading an email clara sent me and i started laughing. well, this goes...
A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning. The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first,and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."The husband said, " You are in charge of cooking around here andyou should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee."Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me."So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says..........
..."HEBREWS"
i love my girl friends.
i love life after exams =) but here comes life before assignment due dates -_-" help me... i just checked my anat results. erm... i want to know the mean. sigh... talk happy stuff instead =)
i went to shop at IMM with chiling for that boy who lives down my lane... that boy who just turned 21. that boy whom has left the 88.3FM frequency and is somewhere else. anyway, while we were shopping and talking much nonsense, we chanced upon this: 
i cannot stand this. it is soooo ugly! UGH~!!!! gross. a mixture of elmo and big bird.
so, what exactly is this?
albert (ELmo + big BIRD = elbird = albert)?
bimbo (BIG bird + elMO = bigmo = bimbo)?
oh my!!! it looks sooooo grosssss... *shivers*
cell group today was funnnn!!!! thank God that both henson and timo are back safe and sound! and i miss the days when cell had much more people. i miss huishan. i miss jaslyn. i miss gary and darren. i miss joey. i miss ping guang. i really miss you guys... huishan!!!! come back ASAP~!!!! december..... SIGH.....
ok. we played dog and bone today. cliche game. but when it's with people like our cell, things just got interesting! highlight of the day!!!! SZERN'S REFLEXES WERE ACTUALLY FASTER THAN TIMO'S~!!!! wahahaha..... i actually snatched the chapteh in one stretch and got it back to my home ground in another stretch! you go girl!!! *pats myself on the head*
and i cannot stand it.... next week's covenant signing~!!! 0o0o0ohH~!!! i don't care! i'm just gonna be bimbotic next week!!! heh. exciting!!!
shuen and peijun, i love you guys. really!
luwei, henson, bryan, timo, marco, bel, joshua, victor, andros too!!!
i missed the noice, the lameness, marco's incessant nonsense.... really. it really really REALLY feels so good to have noise once again in cell. i hope it will NEVER be lost once again. i don't want to lose it again. i just thank God for this cell i'm in. i really love you guys. my family. oh man.... i'm tearing. i love you guys....
ok, keith, i cried during alter call today! haha. did you? 4 weeks in a row for me!
and i did something lame today....
i gave the boy who lives down the lane this:
OREO WaferSticks.
Made in China.
Contains HIGH TRACES OF MELAMINE. (http://www.usatoday.com/money/industries/food/2008-09-29-kraft-mars-melamine_N.htm)
Found in Szern's humble home.
Given to the boy who lives down the lane.
WAHAHAH....
fyi, yousheng, chiling and i totally threw our face on friday. don't want to elaborate much. but we just threw our faces... SIGH~!!!! szern goes to school to throw face!!!! then, on 95, 4 people from all walks of my life were on it la~!!! like so qiao.... yousheng (church), chiling and michelle low (nursing) and serxing (BP)~!!! gosh!
oh! henson left his bag on the bus (852) on his way to church. henson, peijun and i were trying to call the relevant authorities. i called the Directory thingy... and this man told me that there isn't a Yishun Interchange. i was like... WHAT?!?!?!? don't try to bluff me like that. please. anyway, THANK GOD that he found his bag! God is good, all the time, amen? Thank God that no one took his bag. Thank God for answering our prayers.
replies:
>>> fungi: i don't want sk either.... you don't want, i don't want... then give who? sk so poor thing. heh. ok, tell me when you wanna meet liling. i will ask her de! heh.
>>> eliz: I LOVE YOU~!!!! =)
>>> jol: i didn't reply you? really?!?! oh man. sorry =( are we on? $10 club? i've already set aside both dates for you and lizzie!!!! heh.
>>> mic bay: Thank God for you!!!! really!!! your presence in school just encourages me la!!! so glad that you are there!!! *hugs*
>>> wilson: how was mahjong? haha... cannot meet you, once again! so sad. but nevermind la. i will see you whenever i turn off the lights at night =P
>>> peijun: i love you!!!! must be a pro to listen to the stethoscope la! like me! =P i can hear lor!!! i took the BP til quite pro le! heh. ok. i think super bhb =P i will train you someday!
>>> no memory: eh, who are youu?!??! so scary =S
>>> huishan: YES~!!! that's timo~!!!! haha!!! i really miss your lameness and dabian-ness ok?! i cant believe i just said that... but anyway, yes, i miss you!!!! come back!!! cell is just different without you!!!! huishan-deficiency!!!! ='(
>>> adrian: what? what thing new? die la. 21 le la. really different freq le. lolx. it's really obvious man!
>>> keith: i WANT the pillow can? help me snatch it from your friend. WAHAHAH~!!! =P
| Standing In The GAP @ 10:56 pm |
Thursday, October 09, 2008
** i can finally breathe again - respiratory system -_-" **
physiology CA is finally over. i do feel relieved. but i don't feel like getting back my results. tikam-ed until very happy. seriously... it wasn't difficult. just tricky. and the questions were all the minor details that i overlooked. i only focused on the main idea. the gist of it all. oh well.... whatever. it's over. must make sure i pass.... bleah.
let's talk happy things~!!!!! here are some photos i've been wanting to upload but had no time....
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RAHH~!!!!
chiling has this tigger pillow in her residence~!!!!
horrible chi chi... how could she do this to me?!
i want~~~~~~ =(
liling, weiling and i were early for our first physio lecture after the recess week.
and weiling and i were early for our first Nursing Skills Lab (NSL) after recess.
so proud of it =)
the Joker Part II?
nah... just my cell guys having to do forfeits for icebreakers.
this is weiqin, having her Megabites breakfast Set C.
and that's my half-eaten breakfast set B.
ok. this. a trip star gazing trip to Batam organised by NUS Astro.
NUS Astro should do something about it.
what does it mean by "transport or accommodation provided" (NUS Astro, 2008)?
1) if you choose transport, does it mean after traveling to Batam you'll get to sleep on their roads?
2) if you choose accommodation, does it mean you have to book your own ferry tickets to get there at your expense?
it makes NO sense.
keith, check out the posters in school. this one i took is outside LT26, facing the canteen, along the walkway from canteen to that flight of stairs.
ok. keith sms-ed me today cos he found this person's IC, ez link and matric card in LT26. she is from Yong Loo Lin School of Medicine. he was hoping that i would know this person.... and it turned out this girl is from nursing! and she was from aj. my junior. haha! i met keith (thanks! =) ), got the items, and passed it back to Krystal! so ya, Krystal is one lucky girl. heh. speaking of coincidences. this is just so heng...
liling, weiling and i went to Bugis to shop just now cos the CA is over =D quite disappointing cos there was nothing nice to shop. nothing caught my eye. nothing fun. bought a T-shirt together with liling and weiling though... will wear it to school together some day =)
did i mention i went with chiling to Bugis one day before Hari Raya? haha. ya. nothing caught my eye then too! this is sad. hurry! Bugis!!! change style!!! i bought the black Hush Puppies covered shoes for nursing =) heh... looks hip and hop and not aunty at all =) YEA~!!! who says nurses have to look aunty? we can look hip and in and trendy in our uniforms too! a mixture of smartness and hipness... cos we are girls and have bigger hips than the guys... ok. not funny. really.
will blog again soon! yea! so that's all folks.
anyway, to that boy living just down the street,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!!!! =D
| Standing In The GAP @ 9:25 pm |
and he was the one who helped me do this:
thanks, boy! =)
and i skyped huishan! she's in Germany, btw. 
liling, weiling and i were early for our first physio lecture after the recess week.
and weiling and i were early for our first Nursing Skills Lab (NSL) after recess. 
nah... just my cell guys having to do forfeits for icebreakers.
this is weiqin, having her Megabites breakfast Set C.