I don't even know where to begin. Let me try to organise this tsunami of thoughts...

1) Compassion
I wrestled with God to show me His face and He showed me compassion for my lg peeps. Seeing them sob uncontrollably in front of me broke my heart so bad. How they must have suffered! I'm so thankful that they've now (almost) all broken free from their past. Seeing them leave the place transformed made me wanna cry even more. I used to feel burdened every time I see my dear fellow fiver because I was unable to help. Now, he's a changed person. Only God is able to do this! And my dear B, who has been under my wing all these years.. My gosh! Speaking in tongues!!! Almost teared when I heard them! Lastly, my dear Sunflower... Sobx. 一切尽在不言中.

2) Prayer
I don't think I've ever prayed so intensely (is there such a word?) before. Spoke in tongues until I sore throat! Hahaha! Was so in tune to the Holy Spirit!

3) A Vessel
Was praying for God to use me as His vessel, to use me as He wills... And He did! I knew that nothing came out from my own ability in this retreat. I am so humbled by this experience, so humbled that God was willing to use me, so thankful.

4) No Condemnation
I did what I was told to do many months ago. It sounded absurd and was a little daunting but my desire to be set free was so much greater than my disability. Whom the Father sets free is free indeed!

5) Friendships
Deeper ties were forged. I know. I just know. I found a fellow OCD mate! Hehehe! Accountability no longer seems like a bad word anymore. It's about trust, really, and openness and willingness to be corrected. Doing life together man! And oh! Sharing the same bed with my Best Friend for the first time in 12 years? Side by side? Haha!!! Doing God's will together with my Best Friend and Soul Mate and Same Page.. It's has really been a privilege to work with these God-loving people. So thankful to have them in my life. God is so good to me. I am blessed!

(8) You're more than enough for me (8)

#ThankYouJesus !