you know? it is getting very irritating.
can all the teasing please stop? to me, it's just two very good friends going out together. we are very good friends who just decided to take things a little further - to spend our lives together. and so, he is known by a special term, "boyfriend". and when we go out together, we are going on "a date".
as i mentioned, we are just very good friends.
besties. whatever you call it. as such, isn't it normal for us to spend time with one another? just as how i spend time with the rest of my other friends? so why is it that when i spend time with let's say,
Nissi GAP, or
Nur girlfriends, or
Lamerz, or
eliz and ping, other people don't tease me? and why is it when i go out with Cruise, the whole world will turn
topsy-
turvy?
I am generally a reserved girl. I don't like the limelight. I don't like the publicity. I only share my life with the people whom I want to share my life with. And if I do decide that I wanna share my life with you, I hope that you will respect me, as a friend. What's with the teasing?! Come on! Get a life! Enough is enough! His leader told me, "it's because you both are the newest pair". I held on to that and believed with all my heart that it will die down soon. But it got worse instead. I hate it. I really do. I loathe it. I really do. But whom do I tell it to? After all, it's not my side of friends who are making such a big
hoo-ha. It's... well.. mutual friends.
MOST of the
GAPpers are clear. Maybe that one..
that one, teases. The rest? my
BFFs. His
Fs... Don't make me snap. Seriously. I don't want to be nasty.
Just give me some privacy. Just respect my privacy. No teasing, please. And please don't confuse accountability with privacy. I can be accountable to you, by all means! I am NOT afraid. In fact, bring it on! Provided you don't tease me. You listen. You advice. You feel happy for me. You don't tease me. Once you do, I'll slap you.
ARGH~!!!!!
I am so irritated I just feel like crying it all out. I got into a relationship. I am in a relationship. I am blissful in this relationship. If you wish the best for this relationship, please, I'm urging you, please, to STOP teasing me, and return me my privacy. Please do not give me anymore unnecessary stress.
Thank you!
You know... I hate ants so much. I really do! And I hate cockroaches too! Especially those mutated kinds that look like the size of half my 15cm ruler. I encountered one two weeks back and I cried. I hate it!!!! Ants too! They are everywhere!!! Kitchen, storeroom, toilet, bedroom, wardrobe, dining table, study table. I just wonder where they all come from! Been trying to find the ant nests but failed. I wanna exterminate them all!!! Argh!!!! Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill!!!!!
Anyway, exams are more or less done. One more to go. I predict my result slip this semester will be disappointing. I predict my CAP to drop. How depressing. A lousy sem ended on a lousy note. The all-non-nursing-mods-except-one sem killed. So much memory work. Draining. So many assignments. I must mention that I didn't get to rest much the previous holiday before this sem started. And guess what? Attachment for this sem starts right after exams! Hohoho! Merry Xmas.
Attchments are all work and no fun, if you consider working as doing work and not getting paid. If that wasn't your definition of "working", then attachment will be considered as "free labour" to you. I've lemented about this many times, by I guess only a handful of people truly understand it. They include my nursing girlfriends and my family, cos they are the ones who can see how tired I am when I return home daily. One nursing girlfriend commented that no one (friends who are outside the nursing circle) understands the dread we are facing right now, not to mention the tiredness once it all starts. It's so depressing I can cry thinking about it. I don't want to go through the whole process of being so tired til even chewing becomes a chore. I guess that explains why mr bean has been getting my business all this while - I don't eat during breaks. I only drink. Can't imagine having my feet endure 9 hours of standing non stop daily. And oh! The mind games the other nurses play with us... NUS student. Know everything. Rubbish. Kena ostracized. Kena called to do all the rubbishy work. WE ARE NOT EXTRA PAIRS OF HANDS!!! That was what the head instructor of nursing at XX hospital told us on my very first day there. Hoho! It didn't take me long to realise that was false. Not to mention the EXTRA stuff we have to worry about - passing 70% of CCER, weekly reflections, overall institution reflections, case studies and assignments!!! Oh...
When everyone's enjoying, there I will be free labouring. And I just want to clarify in advance: If I keep rejecting meet ups, it's not because you aren't important to me nor is it because I am not making an effort. Pls understand where I am coming from. Thank you very much!
To my nursing girlfriends... Let's be brave soldiers and march on! Fighting!
P.S. Microbee sucked
